I’m sitting here at my computer, scratching my head, asking for spirit to direct me - because frankly - I am frustrated. I don’t have any post pre-scheduled like normal, and I really don’t have anything to talk about other than the CHAOS I have been dealing with every day since I returned to Alabama. In both my work and home life.
Being here has knocked me out of my flow. This morning in particular, before I even got out of bed, fires needed to be put out. I am not afraid to admit - I am someone who needs a good 15-20 minutes - sometimes an hour - to get my gears in gear. I need meditation. I need coffee. I need my walk in nature. All of that before I face the day. I have to ground myself in the good stuff first - that way the bad stuff doesn’t consume me. But lately, it has consumed me.
So, what do I do? Mainly, I breathe. I work through the fires, put them out as best I can, then breathe. Does it help? Eh. A little.
I keep telling myself that I will get back in the flow - back in the rhythm that I am used to dancing to each and every day. When I don’t have to stop and deal with the un-deal-able winds of change. When I am being pulled in every which direction to do this and do that and find this and find that and send this and send that - I am distracted from spirit. When I struggle to find time to do the things that really matter to me, I can’t hear my inner voice - guiding me to my highest good. And I feel STUCK. I don’t like to feel stuck.
I worked all weekend - on my day job stuff - so that I could have time today to catch up on writing my posts and working on my essay collection - and maybe even spit out another chapter of my WIP Novel. But - not today. THE GODS OF THE DAY JOB HAVE SPOKEN!!!
I did however, hit pause on the fires - resolved to write this post, no matter how whiny and selfish it may come across. Because, at this point, I don’t know what else to do, but take a pause. To get matter-of-fact about it. I have had enough. My daily routine is important to me. It helps me manage my stress. It helps me stay even-keeled through the bumps in the road.
We just have to do that sometimes. Press Pause - for longer than a breath or two. AND THAT IS OKAY!
After I submit this - I will be in meditation. I have already decided to choose a 30 minute one that takes me to my lake house in the mountains, where I am steeped in nature. Then I will brew a cup of my finest coffee, because I deserve it. I will listen to my favorite Monday morning pod cast - because I know there will be something rewarding in it for me. I will open up my journal and write what comes through spirit - without question. Then I will get on with my day. I won’t tell myself that I am behind - because - no matter what - I will be right on time.
What are some of the things you do to work through the stress of your day to day? Let me know below. Thank you for being here. Hopefully next Monday, I will have something a bit more inspirational.
Totally feel this. Especially the morning time. at least 15...LEAST 15. and something else this week, Chera, the energy is blasting off chart!
Nice write up. Pressing pause is important. Crucial.
psst, enjoy that coffee and your monday podcast